A Better Me


Because of other things that were going on in my life, I did not get this post out last week for Wicked Wednesday. But what a great week to share this instead!


I am a better me today, at this moment, because of things I have been through, things I have learned, people that have been, and are, in my life. For the family, friends, acquaintances, people I know and don’t know, I am a better me for all these things.  

But especially for the man that has been by my side through the mess that is me. Every single bit in the last few years. He has supported me, boosted me up, argued with me and pushed me forward when needed. He has been my stronghold through it all. My man has been there loving me and guiding me through the hard times and the good times. He has not given up on me when I didn’t understand why. He is my rock and so much more than I could ever explain. Gave me a place to run to, a person to talk to and confide in and a reason to keep on going when I wanted to give up. He is so much to me and more.

@TheGentlemansR1 has been non-wavering and loving me through it all. I love him for everything he is and always has been.

He knows when I have had my times of internal battles. When my inner voice has told me all the things to make me stressed and anxious; where I am almost at the breaking point. He has pulled me up when I thought I couldn’t be. He has always pushed me to do what I needed to do in getting help in counseling and anything else that would help me get through it all. Such as, self-care in exercise, massages, meditation, doctor, whatever I might possibly need, he urged me on.

I always thought I was a strong person.  He and others say I am, more than I know.  But, I honestly have not felt I am, especially while going through so much in the last couple of years. A lot of things and people have affected me, how I am and how I see myself. I have acted and reacted in the wrong way.

Once I had given up trying to make things right, I gave up believing it could change. So I did not have boundaries, nor did I respect myself enough to change things when I knew they were wrong. I feel I have been judged, misunderstood and criticized by so many I care about. It is my belief that I have allowed myself to lose the person I am by trying to please others and take care of others first. I believe because of this, others do not understand why I am making myself a priority right now.  To find the me I am supposed to be so that they can respect the person I am. No, they may not understand, nor agree with the person I am. Just as long as they realize I am still me, yet a better version of me.  

I believe no one should judge another human being.  No one really knows what that person is or has gone through.  If you are going to judge someone, just realize you, at some point in your life, will be judged too. If you do not understand a person and that person’s ways, get to know them, talk to them, so that you can understand, at least a little bit. 

Do not criticize a person.  They may be different than you. Do different things than you. Have a different way of looking at things and the world than you. This does not make them wrong.  It does not make either one of you wrong. Just different. Is that so difficult? If we were all the same, did the same things, thought the same way, acted the same way, looked the same way, what a boring world this would be.  This statement is so true. Someone very wise that loves me has said this more than once.

As always, I still want everyone around me happy.  Happy in me and happy in their own lives.  I feel there is so much hate and unhappiness in this world.  I know you can’t be happy all the time.  But looking at the positive side of things as much as possible does help in having better days, better relationships and better moods.  Yes, some days are more difficult than others to find that positive outlook. No matter what, you are alive and able to change things if you set your mind to it. 

I have gone a bit off the subject.  When I touch on something I feel strongly about, that is what I do.  And I seem to be able to write things down to make a point much better than saying them.  

I just want to thank all those that support me, and especially the man that is always by my side as my support, friend, guide, protector, and love.  

I have a way to go still but I know I am on the right track.

#SoSS 2019 Overview

My Overall #SoSS of 2019

I have not shared my #S0SS for quite some time.  (I know…It’s not Saturday nor Sunday, but the need to share is there) 🙂   Going through things and trying to determine how I need to move forward in my life has taken me away from doing my norm here on my blog.

I decided there is a need to thank some people and share some things I have enjoyed from others and what others have seemed to enjoy of mine this past year.

First off –

I am so thankful to those I have come to know and get closer to this past year.  Being so blessed with new friends and acquaintances as well as my close friends and loves that were already in my life.  I have felt supported and loved throughout the year.  Especially with all I was going through to bring me down.  I am ready to move forward in my life and have been mulling over how this is going to go for me in the new year.

All I can say right now is, keep up with me, hang in there and find out what exciting things will be happening in the very near future!!

Now Onward with the past year’s #SoSS

I did a total of only 11 #SoSS posts this past year.  11!!!
That’s it! Thought it was more, but obviously not.


-First was in January on the 12th. I shared the prompts and memes I joined in on, and shared the top three I liked the most.  I also shared what I had written for the prompts and memes that week.  You can check it our Here.

I then did two more in January, on the 20th and the 26th.  Both were short but I always like to make sure I either share the top three stories chosen or the links to each of the prompts or memes so you can check them out for yourself! 🙂


-Sharing three of my #SoSS in February, on the 9th, 17th and 23rd.

On the 9th of February I shared some of the new prompts/memes to join in on, as well as the normal ones I like to share.

The 17th of February was one I was late for while participating in the Smut Marathon and I shared some recommendations given by the lovely Brigit Delaney.

Then on the 23rd of February I was excited to share that I participated in picking the top three for Masturbation Monday!


-In March I only shared one on the 3rd and in it I said a bit about what all I am learning being here and then shared some other things for all to check out and enjoy.  🙂


-In April there were two #SoSS posts.  It is during this month that I went to self-hosting so it was taking a some time to get used to the new way of doing things.

April 14th I shared my favorite posts from Masturbation Monday and Wicked Wednesday.

And on the 21st of April I was able to share my two posts I wrote for the week and then also the prompts/memes I share every week for all to participate in.


-I totally skipped May and went into June with one #SoSS for that month.

While participating in #EveryDamnDayInJune I did my #SoSS on the 10th of June. With this one I just shared some personal things about me.


-Once again I skipped a month and went to August, on the 2nd, for my next #SoSS share.  In this post I shared many podcast I have been listening to and enjoying and decided others might enjoy them too.


That was my last one for the year 2019.  So much happened in the year to get me off kilter and I am really hoping for this new year of 2020 to dive in to all my goals to accomplish in writing and sharing. They may not all happen but I am sure going to give it my best!!

Posts Of Mine That Were Shared:

*My post Mirror Time from January 7, 2019 was shared by Nicci Haydon on April 8, 2019.  Please give Nicci some love by going to her site and checking out all she has to offer!

*Asrai Devin shared my post Wicked Daddy from February 12, 2019 on March 9, 2019 under the “Erotic” title.  Check out all Asrai has to share on her site!

*On June 13, 2019 I wrote my post Fantasy In Poem and it was shared by Deviant Succubus on June 17 in her #SoSS post  Go give Deviant a visit! You won’t be disappointed!!

*Miss D shared my post from June 13, 2019 regarding People-Pleasing. She saw it on my blog and then shared it on her’s (Self Discovery)! This is why we share.  If we can reach one more person that has had a similar experience and either don’t know why or don’t even realize until they read about it, well it is one more person “in the know.”  Please give Miss D a visit and see what else she has to share!

*My Post 2 Souls On Fire from July 24, 2019 was shared by Posy Churchgate in her #SoSS post for August 2.  Hop on over to Posy’s blog and check out all the great topics she has to offer!

*On August 12, 2019 I shared a post named My Words To Live By and May More shared it on her #SoSS post on October 2.  May has so much to share and I think you will enjoy anything you come upon!  Give a look see and find out for yourself!

*Sharing my post of After Dinner Plans on September 4, 2019, caught the attention of Purplesole (One half of Purple’s Gem) and shared my post on September 5 for Masturbation Monday’s Roundup! Please take a bit to check out Purple’s Gem site and find the treasures that await. 😉

– Also sharing my After Dinner Plans post is Posy Churchgate in her #SoSS post of September 7! Thank you so much Posy! Once again, please give her blog a look-see!

*This Is My Fight Song is a post I shared on September 5, 2019.  It was part of the Music As Muse Month.  Marie Rebel of Rebel’s Notes shared it on her #SoSS post on September 7. Definitely give this lovely lady some love by going on her blog site and checking out all the wonderful posts, pictures and information she shares!

Thank you so much for all that shared my posts and those that commented when you could on some of my posts.  I really enjoy seeing that I either touch or bring some feelings to those that read my posts!  Once again, please give the bloggers above some love by visiting their sites.

Final Post Words

I hope you have enjoyed my sharing of 2019 posts and will come back to join me in other posts and writing I will do this year.

I have been on a time-out, per se.  But, I am slowly going to work myself back in to doing some things here and sharing.  I miss it a lot! Enjoy the rest of your week and thank you for joining me in this rather late post for the #SoSS of 2019. 🙂



Check This Out!! – Podcast Recommendations

I have once again found a couple of great podcasts from listening to the ones I love so much!

Podcasts to Listen to:

Sluts & Scholars Podcast

Shameless Sex Podcast

How I found them:

I first found Sluts & Scholars when listening to Kink Craft on episode 15 of which I have linked to.  This Podcast was about De-platforming – A discussion with Sluts & Scholars, discussing how they were de-platformed from Apple.  Then how, after making a lot of changes, they were able to get back onto the platform.

Then I found while listening to Sluts & Scholars, the Shameless Sex Podcast in their episode 120 (linked above), called Shameless Sex. 🙂  In this episode they discuss sex play with a soft penis, sex toys, erotic massages, censorship, lubrication and so much more!

Listening to Shameless Sex for the first time, was a great podcast (episode 126 which is linked above) on Erotic Blueprints with Jaiya!  What an amazing fun podcast that was, about finding what your core erotic blueprint is and how it leads to great juicy connected sex. 😉  To take your own Erotic Blueprint quiz go to: eroticbreakthrough.com/shameless/

So, check them out and have a go at finding out what YOUR Erotic Blueprint is!

K  xx


My Piercing Intrigue

Piercings!  I am very intrigued by them.  What is it about getting older and deciding you have to try things before it is too late?  I have several ear piercings, one clit hood piercing and would love to get nose and belly pierced.  Have also thought about nipples.  My wonderful friend Marie of @RebelsNotes and https://rebelsnotes.com encourages me in these endeavors.  And I see there are so many others that have great experiences and love their piercings as well.  

As I said, I have several ear piercings

Three to be exact, in both ears.  I love the ability to wear several different earrings at one time.  Long, short, sparkle or just decoration.

I have always wanted my belly pierced but have not done so and in the last few years have considered my nose.  Love the little extra sparkle it brings.  Then I have also thought about clitoral hood and nipples.  

What about Genital Piercing

In the last year I decided to do the clitoral hood piercing.  I am loving it so far.  It definitely gives that extra stimulation I have heard about, which is awfully nice.  (This is the lateral piercing which is known for more stimulation during sex.  I understand the horizontal is more for decoration purposes.) https://www.cosmopolitan.com/sex-love/a20746125/clit-piercing/ shares some great information on the clitoral piercings.  

The horizontal piercings are definitely a possibility in the near future!

Belly Button and Nose Piercings

Yes, I would really like my belly pierced.  I have always loved that special adornment there for the extra draw to my belly button and always thought it looks so sexy.  So, yes, I would really love the belly button piercing, even at my age.  I figure, if you want it, try it.  And if it doesn’t feel right or fit for you, take it out.  No harm, no foul.  This is what I have been told by so many as well.  

The same goes for the nose piercing.  Just that added little tiny sparkle is what I love and think it is so sexy and just says, “yes, I am confident in me and how I am and look.”  

Now, the nipples

This is a hard decision.  I have sensitive nipples already and so it concerns me that because of this, a) it will hurt extra bad when piercing, b) they are already ultra sensitive, so will it make it even more so with the piercings there or take it away? and c) will they be able to accept clamps with the piercings or will there be a need to do other forms of nipple play instead?

Yes, I have thought of all of this.  I love the jewelry for nipples.  It would be so much fun with being able to dress them up.  But, I guess I am just worried it will take away from the fun play I can have now with clamps, suction cups and sucking from mouth play.  So there is so much to think about and consider!!

Any input and suggestions are always welcome! 🙂

Check out the other great shares on piercings on the

#WickedWednesday prompt here 

*pics from Pixabay and bing.com/images


My Words To Live By – Right Now

I began my blogging adventure right at two years ago.  It was during a tumultuous time and I was trying to find my footing in my life and in this world of blogging and sharing.  

Like so many of us, I began my blog as just a place to go and share things I was going through and to explore a world I was interested in with BDSM and D/s.  

After a couple of months I started following those that shared their stories and had interests similar to mine.  I found people who not only had similar interest in BDSM and D/s but also loved writing as I do.  I found several that I admired and that had memes and prompts they ran for people to participate in and share their stories.  I was so excited and wanted to join in.  

I wanted to be just like these wonderful people and do what they do and write like they write.  

Well, recently I came to the realization, lightbulb moment, that I am not like them and I don’t write like them.  I am my own person, write my own way and in my own style.  I will never be like another person because I am who I am, not them.  Makes sense, right?

One of my favorite quotes by a very wonderful writer, Brené Brown, is, “Being ourselves means sometimes having to find the courage to stand alone.” 

To me, this doesn’t mean you will actually be standing alone, but doing things you alone are interested in or have a passion for that others around you do not.  Or, they have a passion for something else even though they may love what you do.  So, have the courage to step out of the crowd and follow your passion and what you are interested in.  If you are, then there is a very large chance someone else is too and can benefit from what you do or write about.  

I am alone a lot right now and have a lot of time to read and listen to podcasts.  In doing this, I am finding things that I believe is the way forward for me.  This is in both my writing and possible future work. 

I am doing research and testing some things to verify this fact, but I am pretty sure I am on the right track and am so excited about it!!

I have had some people, mainly family, that have decided that what I write about and share is bad, not me, and that I am lost.  This is not true.  What I write about are things that I not only am curious about but that are helping me actually find who I truly am.  It is not bad and I am definitely not lost.  I am at a stage in my life where I had to make a change.  And it was a big change, HUGE! But I am getting through it.  Carrying the anxiety, stress and emotions that go along with it.  

Thank goodness I have several friends and family that love and support me.  Along with my friends in this blogging community that have come to be very dear to me.  This gets me through.  

I am always switching out quotes or “words to live by” with each new circumstance I go through.  So who knows what my next one(s) will be.  😉



#SoSS on Podcasts

*Picture from Pixabay

My #SoSS for this week is Podcast finds!

I listen through Apple Podcasts but there are many other podcast hosts you can go to and find these podcasts.

I have been following Loving BDSM for the last couple of years and love Kayla and John! They have hit their 4 year mark this month of August and I am so thrilled for them! The topic for this past week is Taking Care of Each other When You’re Apart.  Boy do I understand (especially where the LDR is concerned!) and I had so much going through my head while listening.  So, take a listen and you can catch up on all their episodes if you want as well! 🙂

I really enjoy listening to Floss and Bakji on Proud To Be Kinky.  They are a lot of fun and share good information.  Their podcast this past week is on Dynamics in BDSM.  A very good listen, and take a listen to the rest of their episodes when you can!

I just recently started listening to Kink Craft Podcast.  A wonderful couple I really enjoy listening to.  They not only talk about Kink but other current events going on in our crazy world! This last episode on De-platforming – A discussion with Sluts and Scholars, introduced me to another new podcast (Sluts and Scholars) that I will be listening to when they get back from their meet and greet! 

I was just recently introduced to Sexpots podcast when on twitter! Love these gals (G of Girl on the Net, Bitsy Von Muffling and Katy)! They talk about four topics and have a saying right in the middle (Wikipervia – (spelling?)) that they guess what it means or tell you what they know about it and then read what it actually is.  They have fun and pull you in and have you laughing along with them! Then at the end of the podcast they give you a position to try out with your (or a) partner.  

Another new podcast I found and started listening to was from twitter as well.  It is Smut.  These girls (Lisa and Michelle) are funny and a blast to listen to.  The last one is on Oral Sex, BDSM Test, Sex Laws and Dirty Photos!  They have a lot of fun drinking and eating while sharing their topics picked out for the podcast.  

Franki Cookney is a great writer and journalist and I was so excited to learn she has a podcast as well! The Second Circle is the name of it, and she has her husband on there with her.  Great topics, interviews and information.  Check her out!

Guys We F****d is a podcast run by two comedians, Corinne Fisher and Krystyna Hutchinson.  They talk about so many different topics (both funny and serious) and they are so funny.  The last episode is with Kathy Griffin and it was so great listening to them all feed off of each other through the whole interview with Kathy! It’s called DOES KRIS JENNER KNOW WHEN EACH OF US WILL DIE? Check it out!

So that is my #SoSS for the week.  Not my norm for sharing but wanted to give a shout out to these great podcasts and I know there are more out there! I will most likely do another one soon with more for you to check out.  But until then, I will go back to sharing posts on blogs next week.

Enjoy your weekend and hopefully I have introduced you to a podcast you will love!

Shibari – Kinbaku


I was listening to the podcast Sexpots last night (Episode 7/June 23) and in that episode the word they had to answer in the middle of their four topics was what Shibari is. (They may not know what the word means, but they give a good guess and then get the answer.)  GOTN normally knows a LOT of them and of course knew what Shibari was.

So, hearing this, of course, got me thinking about Shibari again.

I have always loved to see photos of Shibari, otherwise also known as Kinbaku.  To me it is beautiful and from what I understand stress releasing to both parties.  It is art from the one doing the work, and their creative side is being brought out; and release of control for a while from the one it is being done to.  There is a web site for Shibari – Hikari Kesho that has beautiful descriptions and pictures I came across today that you might like to take a peak at.

*The definition (from Wikipedia) is:

“Kinbaku (緊縛) means “tight binding,” while Kinbaku-bi (緊縛美) literally means “the beauty of tight binding.” Kinbaku is a Japanese style of bondage or BDSMwhich involves tying a person up using simple yet visually intricate patterns, usually with several pieces of thin rope (often jute, hemp or linen and generally around 6 mm in diameter, but sometimes as small as 4 mm, and between 7–8 m long). In Japanese, this natural-fibre rope is known as asanawa (麻縄); the Japanese vocabulary does not make a distinction between hemp and jute. The allusion is to the use of hemp rope for restraining prisoners, as a symbol of power, in the same way that stocks or manacles are used in a Western BDSM context.[1] The word shibari came into common use in the West at some point in the 1990s to describe the bondage art Kinbaku. Shibari (縛り) is a Japanese word that literally means “to tie decoratively”.

I myself have had a small amount of shibari done on me.  On my wrists, tying them together; and on my arms and legs (together).  It was an experience I really enjoyed and loved to see the markings the rope made on my skin once it was removed.

I would love to see and experience more one day.  Until then, I will continue to look at beautiful pictures, read about experiences and write about it in some of my stories and hope I get it right! 😉

So, check out the girls on Sexpots! You will get a good giggle at their antics and enjoy their banter and topics.  And check out the website I suggested above if you would like to know a little more. Or take a look yourself on Google or any of the other search engine you might use.


K ~ xx

My Ventures in the Smut Marathon


I didn’t make it through to the next round (Round 7) of the Smut Marathon.  I’m not disappointed because I know I have gotten better the more I have written.  Having received good feedback (in both critique and enjoyment) regarding my writings, I feel I have learned a lot.  There are some great writers I hated to see leaving with me.  Although many great writers are still in it, so definitely continue to enjoy! 

Thank you to Brigit Delaney for picking my last story as her top three initially and in her top ten by the time she was finished in her decisions!!  That meant so much (especially since I followed some of her feedback from before! 🙂 )

Thank you Marie for giving us the opportunity to experience this fun writing competition.  I truly have learned so much about my own writing as well as what a lot of readers look for.  Also, I have realized we must be true to ourselves and not try to follow others and how they write.  We are all our own person and have our own style and when we perfect our writing is when we get the readers that follow and love our work.  

So, to show how I have changed just over the six rounds I participated in, I am now going to share with you my stories from Rounds One through Six.  


Round 1:

Eyes Connect (47 Words)

Their eyes connect as he walks in the room.  Together their souls intertwine, bright as the stars and moon.  Heart beats rooted as one and bodies combine. The fire within meets as they embrace in time.  Quenching the thirst as they release the ecstasy in their minds. 

Round 2:

Do You Dare? (121 Words)

They greet one another and he orders a drink for himself.  He smells of sandalwood and cloves, pulling her in.  Sensing her hidden desire, he wants more.  

“Meeting a friend?” he asked.

“No, you?” she responds.

“Yes.  A few actually,” he says “Want to join us?”

“Oh, no, thank you.” She moves to leave the bar.

“I didn’t mean to chase you away.”

She smiles. “You didn’t. I’m going to the bathroom. Care to join me?” 

Seeing the dare in her eyes, he says, “Sure.”

Closing the door behind them; their mouths, tongues, hands exploring.  Needing, wanting, primal actions leaving them breathless. 

“Damn, you’re good, baby.  We need to do this again.”
“I thought you might like that little scene, darlin’.”

Round 3:

On The Edge (198 Words)

She was so excited about the planned sexting rendezvous.  It had been a while since they had had the chance to have time to talk and enjoy each other.  

“Hello, Kitten.  Are you all right?”

“Hi, Daddy! Yes, I’m good.  Are you?”

“Yes, darling.  Are you in bed now?”

“Yes, Sir, I just sat down on the bed.”

“Great! What are you wearing?”

“My cotton night time knickers and my PJ top.”

“Take off the top, baby girl.  I want you to touch your breasts and pinch your nipples.”

“Yes, Daddy.  Mmm, that feels good.”

“Good girl.  I want you to imagine it is Daddy touching you.  Moving my hand down your body and touching your mound.  Are you doing this, Kitten?”

“Oh, yes Daddy, I love your touch.”

“Good girl. Now, move up and down your cunt slowly and when you get to your clit, circle around it and stimulate that little button.”

“Yes, Sir. Mmmm, that feels so good.”

“Yes, sweet girl, now push two fingers into that wonderful pussy of mine and tell me how she feels.”

“Wet and wanting you Daddy.”

“Good girl.  Now, I want you to stop. And remember, Daddy loves you…”

Round 4

Say What? (247 Words)

Walking out of the bathroom, she hears her roommate talking in the living room.  With towel wrapped around her she tiptoes down the hall. Stops just short of the doorway into the room. 

“Yes, but if we did this to her it would be so much more fun,” her roommate Mike says in his low voice.  

His friend Joe, even lower, says, “I still think this would be way hotter and she would enjoy it more.”

She peeks around the door frame seeing them on the couch, backs to her, leaning over a laptop.  Not able to get a good view on it she leans in a bit more.    

“Oh, wait!” [She jumps.] “What about this? She would totally get off on it.”  

“Damn straight she would. Definitely something your girl here would love.”

Now she lets her imagination run wild.  Were they talking about her? Sexy things? Things to do together? A threesome maybe? She can feel her heart racing. Erotic images pop into her mind.  Her in the middle of these hot guys.  No way.  Couldn’t be that.   

Needing to know, she steps boldly into the room.

“Hi, guys. Whatcha talking about?”

Laptop smacks down as they both jump, turning around.  

They walk over to her.  Towel drops.  Her body tingling.

Walking her over to the massage table, she lays on it face down.

“Joe has some new techniques to show you.” 

She moans. “Oh.” 

And then, hot oil and two pairs of hands. “Ohhhh….!”

Round 5

Enlighten Me (385 Words)

Darkness and cold. Musty smell. And something else.  Ariel awakens with a start, sitting bolt upright, realizing she is laying on a cold floor.  Sundress on, no shoes.  Dizziness hits, head throbbing.  It’s pitch black and she can’t even make out her hand in front of her.  Feeling cautiously around until she touches what feels like fur.  

Remembering vaguely a wolf walking towards her in the woods and then a man carrying her to a small house as her vision comes and goes.   

Something moves near her.  She freezes, listens.  

“Shhh, it’s okay, I will not harm you.  I found you not far from here and you were knocked out and quite cold,” a strange deep voice says.

“I am not afraid,” and she isn’t, surprising herself with this knowledge. “Please, is there any light? Can I see you?”

“Sorry.  There is no light in here.  I will come closer, okay?”

“Yes, please.”

His voice sounds so familiar.  She remembers a dream she had recently; of a man who turns into a wolf as he guards her while she sleeps.  She is extremely attracted to the man.  Tall, brown hair, stubble on square chin and bright hazel eyes.  Cheeks, and body, warm as she remembers the rest of the dream.  

[Their feelings for each other are intense.  They are naked and he takes her in the forest.  The primitive need between them.  Feeding on her pussy and then impaling her with his cock.]  

It is so real and her heart races once again with the vision fresh in her thoughts.

An intake of breath and he says, “Yes, that is me.”

“Excuse me?” She says.

“Your thoughts.  Of the man and wolf.  That is me.” He says softly.

“No.  It is only fantasy and dreams.” She answers, baffled that he knows her thoughts.

“Touch me and see if you feel the same.” He says, moving closer.

She reaches out hesitantly.  The instant she touches him, a symphony of sensations suffuses her nerve endings.  An instant connection to him. Dizziness hits once more and he catches her.  

She remembers looking for her cat and getting lost in the woods. She was attacked but can’t remember by whom or what.  An intense sexual need that hit her then, as it does now. That, she most certainly remembers.

Round 6

Something Borrowed…? (477 words)

She slides into the dress easily. Not sure if she will use it or get a new one, Amy turns left, then right as she looks at herself in the floor-length mirror.  Her auburn hair is pulled up out of her face and she sees her Aunt Maggie in her reflection.  She must have been tall for her time since the dress fits me almost perfectly. 


Suddenly she hears footsteps moving quickly up the stairs.  Bursting into the room are two women looking extremely similar to her grandmother and other aunt, Natalie.

“Come on girl, we are going to be late! You don’t want to leave Samuel waiting at the alter now, do you?” the older woman says. 

Amy’s mouth just gapes open as she stares at the pair dumbfounded. 

“Maggie, say something. Are you ready?”

She looks over to her Aunt Natalie and says, “excuse me?”

“Come on, silly, you look beautiful. Enough staring at yourself. Let’s go.”

They pull her along, out of the room and down the stairs to the great room where people are gathered and sitting in chairs.  There is an aisle in the middle leading to an arch where a very handsome man and a preacher stand looking her way.  

She turns to walk back out from where they came and they turn her around and nudge her toward the men. 


Finding herself in a bedroom alight with candles, she is alone with the sexy, dark haired Samuel.  The dress is being unclasped by his expert hands and he is kissing her deeply.  

Her heart is racing. This is not real. 

Oh, but if feels so real! 

He is sliding his hands down her hips and pulling the skirt of the dress up ever so slowly.  Reaching under as he pulls it up, caressing her mound that is wet and aching for him. 


Breathing in a ragged breath she says, “This is not happening.”

“Oh it is!  This man in front of you, loves you and all day has been keen to pleasure you and make you his.”

A shiver runs down her body as she responds to his touch and sensual words.

He lifts the dress higher and stops at her breasts, kissing and suckling.  She moans.

He then slides the dress completely off of her. 


She is back in the room, in front of the mirror and alone.  

Her sister Angie, all of five feet and long blond hair, flounces into the room. “I found the veil,” she says.

“You know, I think I will not wear Aunt Maggie’s wedding dress after all.  I will look again for my own.” 

She pours herself out of the dress, passes it to her sister as if it were a hot potato and pulls her own dress back on.  

“Well, okay.” Angie says baffled, as Amy moves quickly out the door.  


I hope you enjoyed reading my stories and see the change I went through.  Yes, it was hard at times to get a story in with the short amount of words we were allowed.  To get in characters personalities, conflict, beginning and end AND erotica (I mean it’s not called Smut Marathon for nothing! 😉 ), is no small feat! 

I am proud of the writing I did.  Knowing it is not for everyone, and I am learning still in many many ways.  But I am completely enjoying writing and hope to one day write that great one! 

But, until then, I will continue to learn, write, get great ideas and follow them, etc…

I hope you all stick with me through it! And thank you so much for giving me your precious time to do so! 

Much much love!

Kurvy xx

**If you did not have a chance to read the stories in each round, take some time to enjoy them.  You will find something you like, I guarantee it! Just follow this link: Smut Marathon.  xo

Kink and BDSM Reference


In my normal #SoSS spot this week, I am sharing some information I think is so important for the BDSM/Kinky lifestyle.

I know when I first started to look into the aspects of BDSM, Kink and D/s, I was on the internet a lot, social media, reading books and articles.  I found great podcasts as well.

Whether you are new to this subject or want more information, I have a few references to share from my long-time and recent finds.


I will start first with podcasts.

*My absolute favorite is Loving BDSM with Kayla Lords and John Brownstone.  Their latest one is on Saying “No” In D/s Relationships and they have some great recommendations and input on this subject.

*Another fun and informative podcast is Proud to Be Kinky with Floss and Bakji Ben. Their latest one is Max & Kitty Again! from this past Wednesday. They talk about impact play and implements they use.

*Very informative and with many perspectives (four actually) is the podcast The Ersties Podcast. The last one I caught being The Squirting Masterclass which, I would expect that to catch many people’s attention!

I know there are many others out there, but for now that would be the top three I have listened to for informative information.


Now, there are so many links out there to find for information.  Using any words that you can think of, like Kink, BDSM, Lifestyle, Kinky relationships, etc…

A Beginner’s Guide to Kink is a great source for information for anyone wanting to know more and just getting into the kink/BDSM scene.

Kinky Sex Tips has some kinky sex ideas in spicing up your sex life with your partner.

A great description and write up on BDSM is A Loving Introduction to BDSM on the Psychology Today site. It describes and talks about all the key points in a relationship that is focused on BDSM and all the aspects it includes.


There are so many blogs I started following because they gave such great perspectives of their lives in D/s and BDSM.  They are all wonderful people and most will answer questions if you are not sure about an aspect of the lifestyle.

Here are a few I initially followed for this reason, but not all.

*Kayla Lords and John Brownstone because of Loving BDSM

*Molly of Molly’s Daily Kiss

*Marie of Rebel’s Notes

*E.L. Byrne of E.L. Byrne Writer

*Posy Churchgate and her Pillow Talk

*Missy of Submissy

*F. Dot Leonora

And my list has exploded and expanded triple fold! If you want to check them all out, go to my list of ones I follow and you will find those you will benefit from as well.

Happy hunting and researching!!

Kurvy 😉

Post sharing – Re: People-Pleasing

If you find you have been overly people-pleasing.  If you feel you have to please everyone all the time, there is something called “Fawning” that you could be doing to cause this.

“To avoid conflict, negative emotions, and re-traumatization, people who “fawn” when triggered will go out of their way to mirror someone’s opinions and appease them in order to deescalate situations or potential issues.”

@_Masterseye shared this post on twitter.  I shared it as well on there, from her post.  And I hope she doesn’t mind that I share it here.  This touched me. I myself have been through this in a lot of ways. I know so many that deal with this, have dealt with this and are looking for answers.

People-pleasing can be a result of trauma. It’s called ‘fawning’ — here’s how to recognize it.

I hope my sharing this helps at least one more person deal with something they either didn’t realize they had or didn’t know how to deal with it.