Taking Time

I have been a bit over doing it recently in all aspects of my life.  So, I have taken a small hiatus to regroup.  No worries.  Nothing to take me away for long.  Just needed a short break.  Am working on a project and a few stories and will soon be sharing.

Checking in to show my support with likes and comments.

Have a great week and see you all soon! <3

xx

Always Changing

*Photo from Pixabay

I have changed so much since starting my blog (The one before this and on into this one).  I have learned so much and because of this am different than who I was and where I was when I first started.  

I began my blog to have a place to share my thoughts and feelings, hoping to get some feed back and maybe find others in the same place I was; as well as write and get involved in a community where I can be me.   

Starting out I did this.  I shared my thoughts and feelings of where I was at the time, things I was going through, and tried to do a bit of writing.  In the writing I thought, well, I am creative, I can do this no problem.  Wrong! I didn’t know how or where to start.

Once I realized there were memes and prompts to participate in, I thought it would be so great to tell stories and hopefully others would like them too.  

Well, then I read others’ posts and stories; all personal, real life and fictional.  Still thinking my work was up to par with others, I was disappointed I wasn’t getting many likes or comments, as well as not getting picked as a top three in the weekly choices.  So, I started paying more attention to what others were writing.  I started really taking in how others write and what gets the attention of readers.  There are different reasons, of course and different genres in the sexy stories I read.  I also started commenting along with the liking, because I know how much I appreciate having a comment or two.

I was getting followers left and right and building my follow count pretty well but still would only get a comment or like here and there occasionally.  So, I decided I would continue to participate and change things up a bit.  I love writing fictional stories and fantasies.  So, I started writing more of these recently.  I also decided to jump into the Smut Marathon.  I knew, if nothing else, I would learn and hopefully get better at my writing.  

I have found I am a cliché kinda girl and didn’t realize it.  So, once again, I am trying to change things up.  

Just a day or two ago I came across one of the bloggers posting about feeling that “imposter syndrome”.  It hit me.  I have been feeling that way a lot lately.  That I am a fraud, an imposter, and not good enough to be a part of this writing community and these wonderful writers I participate in writing with. (There goes that anxiety/mind taking over to protect me thing that happens.)

But I want to be so badly and know in my heart that I can because it’s what I love. 

I look up to all these great writers and when I met so many of them recently I felt overwhelmed, excited and fan-girlish (is that a word?) because I want to be like them.  I know, I know….I can’t be like them.  I am my own person.  But, I want to be really good at this writing thing.  I want to move people.  I want them to want more.  I have been told by a few that they really like my stories, which has made me feel excited and happy.  I just want to REALLY touch people, move them in a way I feel when I read other writings.  

I can see a change in a lot of my writing but know I need to do so much more.  I will continue to work on things, pay attention to what makes other stories so great, get feed back and take it in to be used as I can, and to enjoy getting to know the other writers I am so in awe of.  (And which are becoming friends!)

I am a work in progress.  In so many ways.  

Thank you to each and every one of you that take the time to read my blog.  It means so much!

<3

Fried Brain

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Well…

My brain just feels fried right now.  Don’t know why.  It’s like it’s turned its creativity right off!  I can’t seem to get anything written so thought I would just type about what is going on, or not going on. Ha!

I guess everyone does this, but it’s very frustrating when you feel like you are just starting to get it.  I think it is so great how many of the bloggers have memes/prompts to help writers and other bloggers work up stories to share.  I know it has helped me.

And knowing this, I don’t want to stop because I can actually see my work getting a bit better.  So, why oh why does my brain feel it needs a break??

Okay, so, I will take a break right now, get some sleep and hopefully get back to it full force tomorrow!! 😉

Muah!

 

Vent time…

I have something that is foremost on my mind. Something that has bothered me for the past few years on and off and has come to my attention yet again. Soooo, I just need to vent for s moment….

Why are people so judgmental and stick their noses into other people’s business?? Either they think they are helping or they assume they see and know something that is only partial on the surface, not knowing the whole story. Then they stick their unwelcome noses into someone’s business!

I am seriously tired of people butting into my business and not knowing the whole story‼️ I just want to say, “What? You’re so bored and unhappy with yours, but you have to make someone else’s life miserable??”

“Go ahead and walk in my shoes for a while, then you will get the picture. Otherwise…My life is MY LIFE…Get a life and butt out of mine!”

Just had to get that frustration out of my head.🙈

So sorry…thank you for giving me some venting space💋xx

* Pic from Pinterest

Here I lay…

Here I lay, unable to sleep. I don’t know why and I haven’t done this in a very long time. My mind is trying to find something to latch onto so I can just slowly lull back to sleep but it doesn’t seem to be working at the moment.

So here I lay looking at the fan spin around above and listening to your breathing.

*photo from Pinterest

Sharing…

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Reading blogs from others is fascinating to me.  It amazes me how open to sharing so many are.  I myself, being one of them, with a bit of me at guard doing so.  Yet I still do.  It makes me think, do others think we are real or fake by us sharing so freely? Do they realize they are looking into a person and their soul by the sharing that is done?  Some even may use their real names in the sharing, while others will never do so.  

I know a lot of people share these moments, happenings and thoughts to deal with their life in the best way they know how to.  Like writing in a live diary where the whole world can see, read and share.  Many deal with anxiety, depression, feeling of loss, stress, fears and even feelings of happiness and joy.  Just everything in their mind that they want to share and get out of their head.  

Knowing there are others out there going through the same things or similar things helps others, I believe.  I see it in the responses and discussions on different blogs.  It shows we are not alone in what we go through and there is always someone out there going through something very much the same. 

I feel very blessed to be a part of it, if not but a tiny part.